Solitary Celebrations

One of the best things in life is human connection. We just aren't  made to be alone. We are conditioned to need compassion, love and trust. When we don't get to experience those things we slowly fall into a depression. That's probably why its possible to die from a broken heart. Growing up, those of us that are lucky enough to be surrounded by people who love us got to enjoy Christmas, birthdays, and other celebratory functions as children.
Then you learn as you get older, those celebrations don't mean as much when you have no one to share those moments with. Birthdays, Christmas', birthdays and other holidays just don't mean as much as you would like them to.
I just recently moved to Los Angeles to follow my dreams. I left behind my family and friends for uncharted territory across the country. I know that it was something I needed to experience and a chance I needed to take, but there are days like this one I wish I stayed in Atlanta with my family. Today is my birthday and instead of celebrating it with my family and friends back home, I'm sitting at home alone blogging. Pity is not what I'm trying to gain but sometimes to others who feel the same and they read something like this, its nice to know that you aren't the only one.
I haven't found love or my place in this world yet but I'm definitely searching for it. Its really hard to not let thoughts like these bring you down. Especially when you're by yourself often. These thoughts can creep up on you when you least expect it. It doesn't take much; music, couples, others who enjoy their happiness or holidays can be tough on those who don't have the exuberant feeling of human connection.
Some people tell you that you should get over it and count your blessings. Screw them! Its okay to feel whatever you may be feeling. Don't let anyone tell you what you're feeling isn't just, because it is! No one can tell you how to feel or make you feel bad for feeling it.
Solitary celebrations aren't easy to get through but you know what? We can get through it. Its just temporary. I hope you all find your smiles. Maybe we'll find them together :-) Happy birthday, Merry Christmas, Happy 4th, Happy New Years, Happy Valentines day and all the other holidays to lonely hearts out there!